Wow, what a week first off!!!! My heart is filled with so many feelings right now. This has been a week completely unexpected but lessons have been taught that the Lord needed to teach us. My mom has been having some health problems in the recent months that finally were diagnosed and planned to be treated. She found out she had a "lump" of growth on her kidney and if it wasn't treated she would lose her kidney. The doctor in St. George didn't even want to take a chance messing with it or trying to remove it its a very dangerous procedure but needed to be taken care of immediately.
So my mom was referred to the best specialist in Utah and traveled to Salt Lake City to have surgery this week. July 8th was surgery day and the surgery was at LDS Hospital. My grandma arrived with me and we were able to stay with my mom right up until they took her back for surgery. Many tears of fear and sadness were shed as we have feared the unknown of what would be happening with my mom but faith in a loving all knowing father in heaven that whatever trial or lesson it may be that his will always will be done.
Mom was scheduled for surgery at 12:30 but didn't get into the actual operation until 2:00 when they took her from us I told her I loved her and she squeezed my hand. I knew she was in the loving arms of our father in heaven now.
Patiently and worried we waited and waited the surgery was only suppose to take 2-3 hours well after 4 hours the doctors nurse called me and said they were making slow progress and there was bleeding making it difficult so after 5 hours the doctor came in and talked with my grandma and I and said they finished the surgery and my mom was fine it was a blessing and a relief. Because of the bleeding they will have to go back in on Friday and finish removing the lump on the bottom of the kidney.
My mother is an amazing woman full of strength and faith. I have been by her side and through this pain and suffering she has taught me endurance and strength through this trial and I love her even more.
Along with these health scares my mom had a biopsy on her thyroid a couple of weeks ago and the day before her surgery we were together and got an unexpected call from her Doctor in St. George... And in a single moment my mom recieved the news that many ponder what they would do if they ever recieved that news... They told her Diane there has been some growth on your thyroid and there is a 1 and 7 chance that it is Cancer..the C word..... Basically you have cancer. My heart sank when I heard this my mom grandma and I were together and tears flowed from our eyes and we thought about life and all this and had to have the faith to put this in the lords hands and trust with all of our hearts in him and what he can do not on what we can do alone....
So my mom is suppose to have an emergency surgery to have her thyroid removed hopefully in the next week before it spreads to any where else in her body... Ironically within hours of hearing this news we went with my aunt and cousins to see the film "My Sisters Keeper" and how close it hit home to us in a single moment. This caused me to reflect on this situation with my mom and at this time I will be her keeper and love her and trust in the lord through faith that he will be there for my mom. We don't have all the answers right now and probably won't but being hit with these trials all at once has been overwhelming but at the same time a test of our faith and has caused us to remember that we will never be given a trial that we cannot overcome.
I have a true testimony that Our father in heaven loves us and knows us. He wants us to be happy I have felt the closest to him when I have turned to him in my joys, my sorrows, my fears, my successes and my failures. He knows my mom and her struggles personally and he will help her overcome these and through her faith great miracles can come to pass.
During this difficult time my Uncle gave my mom a priesthood blessing and it has been a great comfort to us. He reminded my mom in the blessing that the savior has atoned for every pain and sorrow that we have ever gone through and he will take our burdens if we will allow him to. He reminded us of the unconditional love that our Heavenly Father and Savior have for us. We are so blessed to know that our family is sealed in the house of the Lord for Time and All Eternity and love lasts forever.
Sitting here at the hospital with my mom I love her and I see a beauty in her. She is an amazing woman full of love and strength and everlasting endurance. She is the rock in my life and everyday of my life I will be grateful to her for her love and example in my life.
On a happier note this week on July 8th we celebrated the 1st Birthday of my Beautiful Niece Aspen Kaylee Morgan. It has been a celebration of life and what a joy she has brought into our lives. I am so honored to have been taking care of her since she was 2 months old and to be a part of her life everyday I love you so much Aspen! You have been such a joy in our family we are so blessed to have you in our family!
This will be a long journey ahead of us filled with uncertainty sometimes but always if we have faith and hope everything that is meant to be will happen and no matter what love will go on forever. I want my angel mother to know how much I love her and how thankful I am for her in my life. I'll keep an update!
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