"Everything That Is Meant To Be Will Find A Way"

I am so grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord in my life and when I am down I am reminded once again of the perfect, unconditional love that my Father In Heaven has for me when the world would have you believe otherwise.

Those who know me the best and know me the closest know the circumstances that have gone on this past year and it has been a very unexpected and difficult year but I am a survivor and have lifted above and beyond and am better from it.

I had the opportunity to talk with my Bishop tonight and open my heart out and I felt the Lords hand touch me through the words and feelings there. Maybe I am being to personal here but I am so grateful to have the truth in my life and be enveloped by it when I need it the most and feel I have no where else to go.

I love the quote "Everything that is meant to be will find a way". Often times more so than often things don't always turn out the way we expect or hope they will turn out or in an unexpected way when the odds were against us in every way imaginable they do work out.

I am thankful to know that everything under the sun has a reason a purpose and a destiny. Nothing happens by chance or by luck rather because it is meant to happen always to teach us and in someway make us a little better than before.

Looking back on this past year there are many feelings that are on the surface and I do not have the answers to everything at this time and may not in this life. I cannot regret yesterday and can't blame myself for what I said or did or should have done all I can do is learn from the choices I have made and learn to forgive myself and others and look forward to the future with great hope and never ever, ever, give up.

I can take with with me knowing all things are meant to happen for a reason and will always teach utyou a lesson whether great our small. It is up to us to open our hearts and our minds to be taught.

I have so very much to be thankful for. First and foremost I am thankful to my family they are perfect to me in every way.. "We may not have it all together but together we have it all" They are the ones that have always been there and will always be there with an unconditional love and understanding for me.

I am thankful for my TRUE friends. Those who have been there for me through thick and thin the good times and the bad times and who without question have loved and appreciated me for me and who I am no questions asked!

I am thankful for the Love I have from my Father in Heaven. His hand is in my life in every single aspect he knows me and loves me I am grateful for all that he has given me and know he is always there for me.

I am thankful for my goodly parents. My Angel Mother, I owe my life to her for her love and strength and for her always being there for me and most of all just being a listening ear. My Dad, he is and will always be my hero and my strength. Each day without him is one too many but one day closer to being with him forever. I hope I can live my life in a way to be worthy of those blessings.

I have been given so much and am grateful for all those things I have learned. Everything that is meant to be truly will find a way............
Love -Me

She Is Love

I love this song its one that has been playing alot on my play list. I love the words they make me think of my mom she is truly love and everything that she is and everything she represents is LOVE. She is the one person who will always believe in me and love me. I love you Mom.

"She Is Love"

I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She's all I need.

Well I had my ways, they were all in vain,
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same, all my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.

Cause when that world slows down, dear.
And when those stars burn out, here.
Oh she'll be there, yes she'll be there,
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need,
She is love, and she is all I need,
She is love, and she is all I need.

My Angel Mother

"Anything That I Am Or Ever Hope To Be I Owe To My Angel Mother".

This day my heart is full as I reflect on another day passed and another year gone by. We don't need a holiday to recognize or honor our Mothers it should be something we do every of our lives. My mother truly is my best friend and the rock and safe place I know I can go to and within the arms of her love find my way again and find the place where I came from and who I can become through her unconditional love.

Mom,

As I look at you and look back on years passed and years gone by I am taken back to so many memories. I am taken to the joyful times the happy times the sad times the hardest times and always the times you have been there for me. I have sat back and watched you over the years and see the strength that is within you I know times haven't always been easy but no matter what you have always held your head high and stood forever strong through anything that has come our way.

I could only hope for and strive my life for a love like you and Dad. Your love has been one for the stars a true love that will last forever. No one in this world could ever do what you did for him and at the same time loved us and took care of us. Your strength and everlasting love for him was one that only you could do. You are an amazing woman your strength is enduring and everlasting. Thank you for picking up the pieces when life seemed to crumble and make them whole again and seeing a reason to love and live no matter what.

Thank you for believing in me and for letting me dream and fulfill my dreams whatever they may be no matter how small or great. Thank you for seeing me through my darkest hours and for taking me by the and and never letting go until I reached the light again. Thank you for our million talks on the phone everyday. I love that I can call you over and over and you will always have something to say and you will always listen to me. Thank you for your integrity and for teaching me honest and hard work and for teaching me the best lessons in life are those you learn by learning and doing to become a better and stronger person.

You are the reason I am the woman I am today. Your forever love has always been there and to you I am eternally grateful and owe everything I am or ever hope to become to you my Angel Mother.

I love you,
Love -Me

24th Birthdays!!

On April 2nd I had my 24th Birthday it was wonderful!! My mom came up for the week and my family and I went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse it was fabulous. My mom and I were able to attend a Session at the Ogden Temple. I got new clothes and a couple DVD's. Shawn got me The Movie Twilight I was so happy we like watching that movie together and he was so sweet he got me 2 Dozen Red Roses. It was a perfect day I couldn't ask for a better day. May 4th was Shawns 24th Birthday I wanted to make it a special day for him so I planned a day of surprises for him. It was a fun day.... First I decorated the door of his apartment while he was at work to surprise him he was surprised it was hard to get inside I barricaded the door with streamers and balloons:) The Morning of his Birthday I brought him a bouquet of Balloons and brought his presents. I had to go to an orientation for my new job so I left after that then we met up for the rest of his birthday. I made him use a tie as a blindfold and off we went.... We drove to Salt Lake City and had a yummy dinner at the Joseph Smith Memorial Building at the Garden Restaurant. We tried the fried pickles they were surprisingly good!!! Then we went around the Salt Lake Temple grounds that Temple is special to both of us because we both recieved our endowments there! Then we drove to Boondoks in Draper to play Minuture Golf we had a blast!!!! After we went to Shawns and had cake and Farrs Ice Cream. I made his favorite cake my moms famous German Chocolate Cake:) It was a great Birthday now we are both 24 and lovin it!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Every Ending Is A New Beginning

Intermountain Medical Center:

So I finally gave in and got a blog! Not gonna lie I am excited hehe I have wanted one for awhile but didn't know how to do all the gizmos and gadgets so with help at 3 a.m. with my wonderful co-workers (Steph, Katie, and Andrea) I am a blogger now! So I am excited to update this with my life and everything that is going on with my life! Here it goes!!!!

So I have worked for Intermountain Healthcare for 1 year now since I graduated from BYU-Idaho last April. I first worked at LDS Hospital as a Child Development Teacher I loved every moment of it being a teacher to young children and make a difference in their lives. My sister had a baby this summer and some life circumstances changed so I had the opportunity to become a Nanny for my sister.

So after 6 months I transfered to Intermountain Medical Center to work on the Maternal Newborn Unit. I have loved being here and have been here for 7 months. I have made dear friends here and have learned so many things about babies, new moms, the birthing experience everything.

I have moved to Ogden now and the commute takes me about 45 minutes and working nights its hard driving home in the mornings so I was very fortunate when a job opportunity came up at McKay-Dee Hospital on the OB/GYN floor. So... here I am again transfering to McKay-Dee. The commute will be cut in half and I will be closer to home and still doing the same job just a new hospital and can work for IHC still!

I am going to miss the girls I work with. We have so much fun working nights the 4:00 a.m. comic reliefs make such a difference and I love laughing over the silliest things and just being with such great people. I will miss the friends I have made here but I am looking forward to my new opporunity and where it will take me! A New Beginning: Mckay-Dee Hospital