So life is pretty good right now. I absolutely love my job at Mckay-Dee Hospital. I could not ask for more my job has been such a blessing I love the hospital and the people I work with I have made new friends and learned so much already!
I am still the Nanny and loving it its been another blessing and I have loved using some of what I learned as a Child Development major to help the two precious kids I get to be a part of their lives.
So the past year my plans have been rearranged many times and haven't quite worked out how I wanted them to or expected them to but have always worked out how the Lord knew they would be the best for me and I would be the happiest and looking back on this year I see how right he always is and things have been paved in the right road that was right for me at this time in my life!
During my 5 years at BYU-Idaho I dreamed of being a Child Life Specialist at Primary Childrens Hospital in SLC. I was accepted into the program at the U of U. They have a weird/unique class schedule and I had to start in the summer in order to take the classes because certain ones are only taught in the fall only and others in the spring only so I had to start in the Summer. Well due to the blood clot and recovering from that and everything else I wasn't able to attend my classes last summer I was devastated.
So I am again reminded that things happen in the Lords time and the Lords way so here I am again sitting back and amazed at how well things work out for the best! Through much prayer and careful consideration and much pondering I am on a new and exciting course! In the fall I will be attending Weber State University in Ogden Utah. I will be studying Social Work! This is another blessing because there are 6 pre reqs. for the program and because I was a Sociology/Family Studies Minor at BYU-Idaho 3 of the classes will transfer saving me more time and the program will only take me 2 years since I already have my Bachelors Degree in Child Development.
I am really excited about this new opportunity and have reconsidered my options and goals and where I see myself going career wise. I love working in the medical field and love helping people and making a difference in their lives somehow. I have worked for Intermountain Healthcare for a little over a year now and would love to continue working here so there are many opportunities that await me here. I would love to be a Medical Social Worker and be a Crisis Worker or anything helping people. So we'll see where this takes me!
Along with changes in life I have been reflecting on lots of other things at this time.
Tomorrow June 14th should have been a great celebration of the day that my dreams of time and all eternity came true and the beginning of forever. I'm not going to dwell or go into detail but this has been on my mind alot lately this past week as I reflect on one year ago and where I am today because of it.June 14th last year was the happiest day of my life. It was beautiful and perfect and though many trials faced me to make it to that day I did make it and was able to enter the house of the Lord something I had prepared my entire life for. Here it is the eve of that amazing day one year later and I am no where near I ever imagined I would be a year ago. But looking back I have taken many great lessons with the falls and heartaches and I have been given my life back and learned lessons the hard way but the right way and my life is richly blessed for understanding why I have gone through everything and the purpose for it and who it has made me.I have experienced the greatest heartache imaginable but am amazed as I look at my life today and through much prayer in my behalf and much faith and trust in the Lord I can truly say I am happy and have great hope of what the future will bring for me. Yes there is much sadness there still and much regret but I don't dwell on it I learn from it and take each moment step by step and a moment at a time.I love the saying life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it is about learning to dance in the rain. The rain has fallen many times this past year and I have danced in the pouring rain and at the end of the day the sun has always shined again and a rainbow has always shown me hope of a promise of a better day.
June 12th last year was a very significant day in my life and one I will never forget. I have never felt so close to my father in heaven as I did at that time. I remember it as clear as yesterday being taken to the Emergency Room in the middle of the night and being told that I had a blood clot that had within 12 hours had spread from my foot to my thigh and being told that if I hadn't come in when I did I might not have waken up the next morning. I still was in grave danger they watched me closely and there was the possibility that the clot could still break off and could have taken my life.I remember sitting there in the room at the ER. It was very quiet, the middle of the night there with my angel mother. We both cried and as the tears fell I was overcome with the spirit confirming to me that I was a daughter of God, he loved me and no matter what he would always take care of me, no matter what I was going through from the best days to the absolute worst which I was facing at that time. I knew there would be a chance that I would be taken from this life and I wasn't out of the woods yet.I remember telling my mom that it was okay and that I knew with all of my heart where I came from and why I was here and where I was going and that no matter what happened to me I would be okay. I knew if my mission at this time was complete that I would be in the arms of my loving Heavenly Father and my Dad again. I have never been more sure of something or felt more love than I did in those quiet early hours. I knew my parents loved me and I knew my family and friends loved me. I had recieved the blessings of the Temple and knew my life and mission are in the Lords Hands.
Having the blood clot and the problems it has caused after has all been part of a greater lesson to teach me and has humbled me. Luckily, I have made great progress in recovering from this blood clot. It still is a burden in my life today and will be for a long time. It is still painful and a constant reminder of what happened. I am thankful that my mission is to be here and to teach others and be an example to others. I am thankful for those hands who were blessed and inspired to take care of me and knew what care I needed and helped me to overcome this trial. I know everyday is a gift from God and each of our lives has a meaning and a purpose to do during our time here.
Last night at work I had a unique opportunity. I was floated to work in the Emergency Department. I thought it was an ironic thing as I realized it was exactly one year since the last time I was in the ER except this time I wasn't a Patient I was working there. It again brought back a lot of memories and made me smile a little.
I am sitting here writing this and memories of this past year are flooding my memory and my mind and though there is still sadness in a way there is also a calm, comforting feeling in my heart. I have a feeling of hope and of love and feel blessed for all that I have been given and for the amazing life I have lived. I wouldn't trade anything for the world.
What would life be without change and without another path that was better suited for us? We may not know all the answers and may have to ask why? many times and may not know the answers to all of our questions at the time or even in this life but I know without a doubt that things always work out the way it is suppose to. I am thankful for my life and for the love of others and for every single day I get to be me and become a little better than yesterday. Here is to another year and I hope to look back June 14, 2010 and reflect on this past year and again be reminded of the blessings and opportunities I have had in my life and where they have taken me.
I am still the Nanny and loving it its been another blessing and I have loved using some of what I learned as a Child Development major to help the two precious kids I get to be a part of their lives.
So the past year my plans have been rearranged many times and haven't quite worked out how I wanted them to or expected them to but have always worked out how the Lord knew they would be the best for me and I would be the happiest and looking back on this year I see how right he always is and things have been paved in the right road that was right for me at this time in my life!
During my 5 years at BYU-Idaho I dreamed of being a Child Life Specialist at Primary Childrens Hospital in SLC. I was accepted into the program at the U of U. They have a weird/unique class schedule and I had to start in the summer in order to take the classes because certain ones are only taught in the fall only and others in the spring only so I had to start in the Summer. Well due to the blood clot and recovering from that and everything else I wasn't able to attend my classes last summer I was devastated.
So I am again reminded that things happen in the Lords time and the Lords way so here I am again sitting back and amazed at how well things work out for the best! Through much prayer and careful consideration and much pondering I am on a new and exciting course! In the fall I will be attending Weber State University in Ogden Utah. I will be studying Social Work! This is another blessing because there are 6 pre reqs. for the program and because I was a Sociology/Family Studies Minor at BYU-Idaho 3 of the classes will transfer saving me more time and the program will only take me 2 years since I already have my Bachelors Degree in Child Development.
I am really excited about this new opportunity and have reconsidered my options and goals and where I see myself going career wise. I love working in the medical field and love helping people and making a difference in their lives somehow. I have worked for Intermountain Healthcare for a little over a year now and would love to continue working here so there are many opportunities that await me here. I would love to be a Medical Social Worker and be a Crisis Worker or anything helping people. So we'll see where this takes me!
Along with changes in life I have been reflecting on lots of other things at this time.
Tomorrow June 14th should have been a great celebration of the day that my dreams of time and all eternity came true and the beginning of forever. I'm not going to dwell or go into detail but this has been on my mind alot lately this past week as I reflect on one year ago and where I am today because of it.June 14th last year was the happiest day of my life. It was beautiful and perfect and though many trials faced me to make it to that day I did make it and was able to enter the house of the Lord something I had prepared my entire life for. Here it is the eve of that amazing day one year later and I am no where near I ever imagined I would be a year ago. But looking back I have taken many great lessons with the falls and heartaches and I have been given my life back and learned lessons the hard way but the right way and my life is richly blessed for understanding why I have gone through everything and the purpose for it and who it has made me.I have experienced the greatest heartache imaginable but am amazed as I look at my life today and through much prayer in my behalf and much faith and trust in the Lord I can truly say I am happy and have great hope of what the future will bring for me. Yes there is much sadness there still and much regret but I don't dwell on it I learn from it and take each moment step by step and a moment at a time.I love the saying life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it is about learning to dance in the rain. The rain has fallen many times this past year and I have danced in the pouring rain and at the end of the day the sun has always shined again and a rainbow has always shown me hope of a promise of a better day.
June 12th last year was a very significant day in my life and one I will never forget. I have never felt so close to my father in heaven as I did at that time. I remember it as clear as yesterday being taken to the Emergency Room in the middle of the night and being told that I had a blood clot that had within 12 hours had spread from my foot to my thigh and being told that if I hadn't come in when I did I might not have waken up the next morning. I still was in grave danger they watched me closely and there was the possibility that the clot could still break off and could have taken my life.I remember sitting there in the room at the ER. It was very quiet, the middle of the night there with my angel mother. We both cried and as the tears fell I was overcome with the spirit confirming to me that I was a daughter of God, he loved me and no matter what he would always take care of me, no matter what I was going through from the best days to the absolute worst which I was facing at that time. I knew there would be a chance that I would be taken from this life and I wasn't out of the woods yet.I remember telling my mom that it was okay and that I knew with all of my heart where I came from and why I was here and where I was going and that no matter what happened to me I would be okay. I knew if my mission at this time was complete that I would be in the arms of my loving Heavenly Father and my Dad again. I have never been more sure of something or felt more love than I did in those quiet early hours. I knew my parents loved me and I knew my family and friends loved me. I had recieved the blessings of the Temple and knew my life and mission are in the Lords Hands.
Having the blood clot and the problems it has caused after has all been part of a greater lesson to teach me and has humbled me. Luckily, I have made great progress in recovering from this blood clot. It still is a burden in my life today and will be for a long time. It is still painful and a constant reminder of what happened. I am thankful that my mission is to be here and to teach others and be an example to others. I am thankful for those hands who were blessed and inspired to take care of me and knew what care I needed and helped me to overcome this trial. I know everyday is a gift from God and each of our lives has a meaning and a purpose to do during our time here.
Last night at work I had a unique opportunity. I was floated to work in the Emergency Department. I thought it was an ironic thing as I realized it was exactly one year since the last time I was in the ER except this time I wasn't a Patient I was working there. It again brought back a lot of memories and made me smile a little.
I am sitting here writing this and memories of this past year are flooding my memory and my mind and though there is still sadness in a way there is also a calm, comforting feeling in my heart. I have a feeling of hope and of love and feel blessed for all that I have been given and for the amazing life I have lived. I wouldn't trade anything for the world.
What would life be without change and without another path that was better suited for us? We may not know all the answers and may have to ask why? many times and may not know the answers to all of our questions at the time or even in this life but I know without a doubt that things always work out the way it is suppose to. I am thankful for my life and for the love of others and for every single day I get to be me and become a little better than yesterday. Here is to another year and I hope to look back June 14, 2010 and reflect on this past year and again be reminded of the blessings and opportunities I have had in my life and where they have taken me.
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